…we learned about this writing style at school. I think it’s very interesting so I thought I’d give it a try. But what to write about? Sometimes I feel like I have to say something important, something wise, something that will make an impact. Yet I feel like I still lack the experience in life to compose any wise sentences where the order of words do make kind of sense. Yet, does one necessarily have to be old to be wise and experienced? I don’t know.
Someday I feel lonely. Sometimes everyone feels loney. That is natural, isn’t it? It lies in human nature to live in societies, dreading the thought of being left alone, isolated from everyone. But once you find love, everything doesn’t seem to matter anymore as long as you’re with that one person.
But what if that one person doesn’t love you back?
You feel even lonelier. Because it’s like the person you desire most doesn’t desire you as much. They don’t seem to need you as much as you seem to need them. And even if you are friends that will never change. Because needing a friend as a friend just isn’t the same as needing someone you love as someone you love. Because it’s different. It’s even worse if they understand that. Because they are aware of the problem but still can’t do anything about it.
And you try to act all cool about it and natural. But inside you’re still hurting. You wonder “why not me? If not me, then who?” and that question keeps on lingering inside your heart until it finally, one day, will drive you insane. Yet you have to act natural, act cool, as if nothing was the matter.
I don’t know what to say… I still feel like I have to say something important. Something helpful. For those who need it. And even though I have so far written quite a lot if still feels like I wrote nothing at all…
“Loneliness is underrated”. Sometimes we need somebody to listen. Somebody we can share our thoughts with. So that the barriers shrink and so that we feel less lonely. But somehow I feel like I feel lonelier the lower the barriers get. And I stop lowering those barriers because I can’t bear this thought. Still, I lend people my ear and hope to at least pay a little comfort by letting them load some of their stress one me. Don’t you do the same sometimes? Or do you feel like it is none of your business, that it’s not your problem and that you don’t have to care?
Sometimes caring and just simply listening can make a difference. You can help people by allowing them to share their life with you. So that they become less lonely. I get told that being too dependent is a bad thing. But is it right to never depend on anyone? Is it really possible to do everything by yourself?
Caring can make a difference. Or making people smile. But one shouldn’t give up on themselves either and solely depend on people to help them. One has to make an effort as well, walk down that road. I don’t know, I feel like that is all I have to say right now…